Those who read my blog often know of my struggles through the years with clinical depression. I'll say it again, my belief in G-d and the love of my son kept me from the ultimate sacrilege of taking my life. Before I sought the help I needed, those were my defenses against those dark thoughts. They still are today.

This is why I'm continually writing about the horrors of suicide bombers. The name is a misnomer. They aren't committing suicide. They are committing murder. These people may have been coerced or chosen willingly to do this evil act. Whatever the case may be, they choose to commit murder and at the same time take their own lives.

The people who order them are just as culpable of murder as the person who commits the deed.

Homicide bombers are a perversion. They are not glorious defenders, warriors, or freedom fighters. They are anathema to very goodness of life. They have chosen the path of darkness.

They leave destruction and heartache in their wake. Their victims are not armed. They are babies, teenagers, grandmothers, grandfathers, mothers, fathers, aunts, uncles, brothers and sisters.

Life is a very precious gift. I know this from my struggles. It outrages me that these homicide bombers are sometimes defended as freedom fighters. They are not fighting for freedom. They are part of a culture that seemingly glorifies death instead of life.

Every time I read about them, rather it's in Israel, Iraq, India, Bali, or other places in the world, I feel such heartache. All those innocent lives extinguished in a blink of an eye because someone made the choice to worship death instead of life.

The homicide bombers are a perversion. Labeling them as anything other aides in spreading their perversion.



Blogger treppenwitz said...

Well said, but you and I aren't going to change the MSM's way of relating the carnage. :-)

7:29 AM  
Blogger Emanuel Ben-Zion said...

I didn't knew your story. I don't know what to say, but we Jews would loose a great human being, and photographer, if you made that last phase of our life

3:34 PM  
Anonymous seawitch said...


We might not be able to change how the MSM reports the carnage, but we can let others know the truth.


Have no fear. I haven't had such thoughts in years. The medicine I take is very effective.

I'll still be taking pictures, annoying the heck out of people, and just enjoying the life G-d blessed me with.

3:45 PM  
Blogger Elmer's Brother said...

can't imagine not having you around Seawitch.

I suffered with anxiety, especially with the fear of flying. While I was in the service I often had to look for downed aircraft and was part of several high profile searches (Alaska Air off LA e.g.) After awhile it was all I could do to get on a plane and I had an irrational fear of dying.

The Dr. I saw said anxiety is often related to depression and put me on some meds that helped.

I was eventually able to get off the meds and I can fly now.

So all this to say that I am glad you didn't give in.

9:23 PM  
Anonymous seawitch said...


Thanks for your kind words. Your anxiety is reasonable given that you had to search for wrecked planes all the time. I've been able to stop taking the meds for a few years at a time but the pattern starts setting in again and I call my doc and start taking them again before it becomes bad.

It's hard to describe what it's like but it's something I've learned to deal with.

9:47 PM  
Blogger Barb said...

I agree with you on the phrase mis-use completely. I gently correct people sometimes, and when I talk over stories with friends, I always say "homicide" bomber. Even though we may be in the minority, I plan to keep doing so - and I hope you will as well.

10:02 PM  
Anonymous seawitch said...


I plan on it. Sugar-coating their acts of murder is an injustice to their victims.

7:16 AM  

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